The jury in Tia Sharp murder trial has been shown a letter from Stuart Hazell to his dad where he says he is a victim of "the Hazell curse".
The full text of the letter shown to the jury is below:
I know I am probably the last person you want to hear from but everything in papers ain't true they twist and make their own s*** up. What happened I will explain in my time but put it this way it was an accident and I panicked, stupid I know but for my stupidity I am looking at 15-18 years, I regret it every second of everyday and there's nothing I can do about it.
I think about taking my own life because if I don't someone will that is a definite. I'm classed a cat A prisoner, never thought this would ever happen, I hope your not getting agro because of me, you know I'm not the bad person everyone's saying.
I can't sleep can't eat I wish I could turn back the clock but I can't. I'm sorry to of lied to you all but I didn't know what to do. I understand if you rip this up and never want to know me again I wouldn't blame you.
Christine got arrested she had nothing to do with this I loved her with all my heart and soul. God I hate myself I should have gone about this a different way, told the police everything. They're trying to say it was sexual but I promise you that it wasn't. It was an accident and i was a prick to do what I done.
If I had the chance I would end it here and now, I got no money, no fags, no hope it's the Hazell curse and I only got myself to blame and that will stick with me till my time comes which won't be long.
I just want you to know I love you all. I know Christine and family will never forgive me, I know what's coming and I deserve it. I want to ask you one favour and one favour only. Send me a little bit of money in and I will never ask anything of you again. One mistake and my whole world has collapsed my own fault I know but don't listen to papers like everyone else does. I will tell you in time.
I love you all, no doubt you will tell Sarah and Mark and kids I'm sorry, and mum Darren and family.
May god have mercy on my soul even though I don't deserve it.
Love always your son Stuart Xxx
I'm sorry truly truly sorry xxx :(
If you want a v.o let me know dad with all your details. Xx
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